Autumn Thought 101

If love does exist, I saw it in you. The embers of love began to ignite my weakened heart. A fire started… Its warmth I yearned. Love was intriguing, something I had not yet learned. Heart awakened by his gentle manner. Calmness overtook the feelings of emptiness. With the shackles of emptiness finally gone. The fire grew and burned the ropes of fear. Finally standing in the warmth again I saw you. Anchored to hope and love I survive the storm. One more I allow my hearts fire to show. Walking the bridge of eternity, I feel warmth kiss my face. It's embers familiar, I feel you must be close. I call across to my gentle love. I hear a faint response. Here I'll wait in love's glow. Soon my love we will walk together.  Wait for me I will find you soon.

Log 101  1/1/424 x.c. 10 am - message "Captain… Captain Soli..." …Anyone? …Music to past the time that's a good idea. "half way there… take my hand we'll make it I swear" …Hmm 'Living on a prayer'  …Haha ain't that the truth. Interesting artist. 8:10 pm - entry Captain Soli,  It has been nearly a month since last contact. It's cold here on this planet. The locals are new to hospitality but I think I can help them. I've come to enjoy my solitude in this void of isolation and lost dreams. My mind often wonders to Proxima and the memories I shared with you. I still love you. And I wait for you to come. I wish I could see you. I long for your warm embrace. I am getting worried I'll never be found. I never felt fear before and now it guides my path. Without you I feel as though I have become one of the lost ones. Memory is one of the first things to go they say. And yet I vividly hold on to you. However, the short term and long term have m...

Time made my soul its unwilling ghost.  At love's mercy I sat alone.  Waiting, praying, hoping he'll return home.  Darkness cast over its veil of pain. A channel of numbness calls me. In the void I learn to breathe again. I lost my heart the day you left. I felt your presence leave me. My love I'm lost, please find me. Hopelessness and spite seek to bind me. Alone in the shallows of disparity. How I long for peace and clarity. For nothing I lost you. I am empty and fading. Here I stay waiting patiently. In your memory I live on. All I knew is gone. Now I must be strong. Building up the walls you took down. Alongside my enemies I've become the clown. I realize now, I can never fall. I will rise above and rebuild with pride. Alone again, love's mercy bride. To the rules I am tied. Removing my veil, I will not hide. Foolish girl riding love's tide. Drowning in love flood and the memory. Unable to break free from the past. Swallowing the reality, I can't be with...